good way to sum up the evening
"how was the show?"
"well....i just threw up"

my life is apparently a series of one fucked up situation after another after another after another
and a majority of the time all i can do is be passive say oh well and accept it

i honestly dont know how i'm going to make it through the day anymore

its been years since i've been this depressed

today just topped it off

none of this makes any fucking sense

actually i dont know how i'm going to make it through tonight

you know, i swear i will never be allowed to be happy

i sound like a pretentious sappy fuck

but its ok because i am

yet another disappointing day filled with blood and tears.